Hey y'all, this is Dr. Naieema and welcome back to the House of Tah. Now, you already know this is not where we do performative healing, cute vibes or surface level anything. This is the room where the truth gets set free. You get set free because you are the whole truth and your body knows it. And today, we need to talk about this role a whole lot of us have masterered. being the strong one. How many times have you been the strong one just so nobody would ask what you needed? How many times have you abandoned yourself? Let's get honest. Being strong isn't the problem. Having strength is not wrong, but performing strength, when you don't have it to fix other people's shit, that's a slow death. So today, we're going there. We're talking about how our human design profile the lines, those numbers, whether you're 5,2, whether you're 2, four, a 6' three, that's your profile. The lines are the individual numbers. So if you're a 6'3, you have lines six and three. We're going to go through lines one through six. We're going to go through all of them. And we're going to talk about how these profile lines can become survival roles. when you're conditioned or when we're conditioned? Because we live in a society, right? So we're going to talk about what it looks like to live in a shadow of your profile line instead of in the truth and the strength of your lines and of who you are. And I'm going to share a real life story about how I lived that shadow so deeply. And it cost me more than. I intended to pay. That just be frank. So, you know, let me share that story now. And then we're going to go into the rest of the episode. So I am a 5'2 splenic projector. So my lines are five and two, so I'm a 52 profile. And one thing about a 5' two Let me tell you something. I see those solutions. I see solutions that other people just don't see. But the part that other people don't talk about when they're talking about that 5'2, and the solutions that we're able to bring is that the solutions, they don't just show up out of thin air. They come through questions, through clarity, through seeing what others are too close to see. That's one of our gifts. And not everyone likes that. I had a boss who hated that quality in me. She hated the fact that I had questions. She absolutely loved my solutions. In fact, she couldn't get enough of them. But the questions that came in order to get to those solutions, she could not stand them. I remember her saying to me straight up in my face, you know, when my boss tells me to do something, I just listen. And that was clear and everything about her. She was at work every day from 7 a.m. to 8 p.m. Monday through Friday. And she was a sister. Okay, a black woman. wearing the same two floral shirts, the same color, stretchy pants like she went to the store and got like they said, hey, I like those particular color, stretchy pants. Give me all of those. The same color. Just give me all those in this size. And her twist and her hair, she maybe did them quarterly. So, you know, she was looking disoveled. Like anyone who would not ask questions, anyone who is, you know, not living according to their truth, right? She's letting the system fucker and that's how she looked. There was no softness in her, no space, just grind. And here I was daring to ask her questions when she gave me some of the directives. Because that's how my design works. You see, the fifth line sees what is broken. We see what could be better. We see the missing pieces. But every time I act, I could feel the tension in the room. She even said one time during the conversation when I was asking questions and she was shocked and I was asking them, oh, you're very articulate. You know, I've been told about white folk how how articulate I am. But for another black woman to tell me that. It was just, oh, wow, I can't get over on you. It's really what she wanted to say. You know? Going back to the story. You know, I went off, okay? Every time I would ask her questions, you could feel that the air became Willy thick. She wanted to fix. She wanted the solution, but she did not want to, she didn't want me to think differently to get there. And for a long time, I made, I made that mean something about me. I got quieter. I started second guessing my questions. I started performing obedience instead of living my natural clarity. And you know what that did? It locked me in a cage. I was not broken because I asked questions. I was exhausted because I was trying not to. It was not my strength that broke me. It was my fucking silence, my pretending, me trying to be what they wanted me to be except for who I actually am. And that's real talk. That's real talk. I need you to understand that. So I had to accept the fact that because I'm a 5'2 and I was living in my shadow of it, because, you know, this is before I really knew human is on. And I started to really just started getting to know human design then my shadow is the need to save, to fix, to rescue. is what people expect from me and what I unconsciously delivers, even when it costs me my piece, my time and my energy. So when I finally started living my profile instead of performing it, everything shifted. I stopped asking permission to see what I see. I stopped fixing things for people who were not ready for change. I stopped proving myself and started honoring my design. And I started asking fucking questions because I am a solution giver when necessary. And if I'm a part of it, I need I need clarity. And now my life got lighter. That's the thing about humanism profiles. Do not just who you are. They're who you become when you're no longer trying to survive. But when you live in a shadow of your line, when you when you're in mis alignment, it stops being a gift and it startss being a burden. So I want to go through each of the lines, one through six. And let's talk about what it looks like. when you're living in a shadow and it becomes a fucking burden for you. So if you have a line one, you are known as the investigator. A 51, 1, 3, 41, right? et cet. In the shadow, you are oververe researching, never feeling ready, hiding behind knowledge to avoid exposure. You think if you just know enough, you'll be safe. Ma'am, you know more than most people on the topics you looked up because you are an investigator. Do the thing. Show up, start the business. You know, leave the marriage, do whatever you need to do that you've been researching on. Do it. You have enough information. And you're human. You guess what? You're not going to ever have all of the information. Welcome to Vise Imperfectionism. Okay? Line two, yes, I'm talking to myself. 52, five, two fours. We're known as the Hermit. We need a lot of alone time. However, in the shadow, we isolate out of fear. We withdraw too much. And then we're like, oh, no one see you. The one understands what I'm going through. You hide because being seen feels dangerous. Because people do projectil us as a projection line. They project what they see. They see your natural talents that you don't see. So it can be exhausting. So I get it because I'm a 5'2. You got to stop hiding. It's okay to have time for yourself, but if you're hiding and you're like, I don't have a partner. I don't have this thing in my life. I don't have this, this, this thing in my career because you're not networking because you want to be alone. It's you looking in the mirror and go, it's you. It's you, ma'am. Because I do that every so often because I definitely hermit a lot. Okay. Line three, you are known as the martyr. In the shadow for you as a 335, 1, 6336. this chaotic trial in error, self-sabotage, staying in cycles of failure because it's familiar. You mistake suffering for growth. I know this person who went to jail because they did identity fraud. Then they couldn't get a job when they got out of jail. Use their mother's identity. The mother let them because the mother was just as much of a criminal as she was, to get a job, brought her real fucking ID to the job, the ID falls out of her pocket and she goes back to jail. Like, I cannot make this shit up. Okay? Four, line, four, the opportunists. You are great at connecting people right. Yeah, but in the shadow, you're people pleasing. Sacrificing your knees to keep the connections. Feel entrapped by obligation to people. Why? Why do you build relationships on quicksand instead of truth? When you stop doing that shit, you will have the healthiest relationships. You will. I've seen it in forest. And I always tell people who have four lines. The quality of your life is only as good as the people around you because the four, you need other people. You need those connections. Line five, the heretic. Yes, that's me. We are the ever present problem solver that people project on. All the time. So in the shadow, we are over rescuing, fixing unfixable people who didn't ask us to fix them, carrying burdens that don't belong to us and saving everybody but yourself. Mind you, I was saving every fucking body as I was having panic attacks, as my breasts were growing lumps because of my stress. As I was dealing with heartburn, 24 hours a day for eight months straight. What are you dealing with this? Line six, the role model. In the shadow, you're detached, you're judgmental, your isolated from real intimacy. I don't give a fuck if you're in a relationship. You are isolated from real intimacy, waiting for life to be perfect before you engage. You climb onto the roof and you forget how to live. You're despondent. Because you're mad about the first 30 years of all the mistakes and all the people who fucked you over. And rather than taking the lessons from those times, you withdraw. Sound familiar? But the reality is... When we're conditioned, we perform these shadows because they feel safer than living the truth of who we are. I wasn't saving her because it was aligned. I wasn't asking those questions. I wasn't staying silent because it wasn't aligned. I was doing it because that's what my shadow knew how to do. Rescue, overhelp, bleed for belonging, when they don't accept my rescuing, I just shut down. But the truth is, I'm not here to fix people who don't want to be saved. And neither are you. So here's what I want you to do this week. I want you to notice, be aware, right? We're still, becoming aware of our patterns of when you fall into the shadow of your line. Fives, are you trying to rescue people? Tools? When is the last time you went out besides going to work? Six, when is the last time you were able to watch someone or be in a conversation with someone and have real intimacy? Okay, I want you to think about these things. So if you're feeling this in your gut right now, if you're realizing you've been performing strength, wearing a mask, living a shadow, hear me now. You're not broken. You're not broken at all. This is something I want to reiterate. You're not broken. You just didn't know. You didn't have the opportunity to get to know yourself. You're just carrying a role you've outgrown and truly going deep and understanding your human design profile isn't isn't here to trap you. It isn't just knowledge. It's here to free you. when you stop performing it and start living it. This is what we do in the House of Ta. So if you haven't already, join the wait list for the House of Ta, my premium program, you do not want to miss it. And if you're like, no, I need to jump I need to jump in right now. I need to start understanding my human design more. Of courses for that. But if you want to meet with me one-on-one in the clarity session and work through something you're going through in your life right now, one-on-one, just you and I. I always have my one-on-one sessions. All of that is here in the show notes. But note that my one-on-one, as well as my courses, they're going away when I launched the program. So get in when you're body says it's right. We're not worrying about the mind, let the mind take a rest. I'm Dr. Naima, and I'm here to remind you. Your homecoming isn't out there. It's your rhythm. Your clarity. Your return. See you next week.